the cherriest of kings

the world spins for your beauty

Thu, 17 Jan 2008 02:10:22 GMT

I've recently decided to start posting icons here. It's one of my hobbies, so why not? It'll bring a little life to the old journal. Here ya go! I decided to post only icons of beautiful girlies:

Teasers:

-Amélie (1)
-Bjork (1)
-Greta Garbo (1)
-Hayden Panettiere (1)
-Kana (4)
-Maggie Gyllenhaal (3)
-Nora Zehetner (6)
-Scarlett Johansson (3)
-Misc. (3)

1	2	3	4

5	6	7	8

9	10	11	12

13	14	15	16

17	18	19	20

21	22	23	24

the shot of a gun in the dead of the night

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 04:10:44 GMT

PLEASE READ

My friends page is confusing me. I'm cleaning it out in a different way than last time. This time, I'm going to delete anyone that doesn't comment on this entry by next week, instead of just deleting people I don't remember. I'm doing it this way for various reasons: One, I don't update very much anymore and I'm sure this will be an easy way to get me off some of your friends lists without much bother. Two, I don't have much time to read so many entries- and to be blunt- I'm only good friends with a bunch of you, some of you I just know from communities and we don't have much to say to each other on a daily basis. I am not seeking having 1000+ friends, that's not my goal here. I just want people that actually care about my journal to be reading it, less clutter for everyone, right?

If you weren't paying attention before, comment here NOW, or be deleted. End of story. Sure, there are probably some exceptions- I'm sure some of you won't comment and I will still keep (because that's how much I love ya), but please make it easy for me by commenting anyway.

I love you guys, but understand what I'm trying to do here <3 And just in case you didn't check your friends page in time or whatever may come up, I will delete you by not commenting in time, but feel free to comment here and explain, I will add you back. That's why this is a public entry, I don't want to catch anyone off guard.

THANK YOU. Please comment by next Wednesday (March 1st) or you will be deleted.

no thanks, just point us at the highway

Sun, 15 May 2005 22:46:25 GMT

Oop! Time for a friends-cut. If I deleted you ~~go cry in a corner~~ don't fret, I can add you back if you request it. The only reason I've deleted some of you is because:

a) You don't update
b) We don't have anything in common

However, if you don't update or have nothing in common with me, yet you still want me to friend you, I'll do that. Unless you annoy me or something =P (Which none of you really do.) Kk, thanks then.

sniffle sniffle

Sun, 12 Sep 2004 18:42:01 GMT

Let me take this moment to say goodbye to baroque. They were one of my favorite bands, damn it >_<;! Why must they split up *sobs* WHYYYYyyyyy.... I hate them for breaking up now. Jk, I love them =/ Those bastards. Anyway, I'm really sad they broke up and I'm playing their music all day today. (With the occasional Teen Titans Theme for variety's purposes...don't ask.) Also, this layout is dedicated to them. Gah, I loved them so much, bands never last anymore? ;_;

Goodbye forever, one of my favorite bands <3 At least you made gakidou.

girlish MOON

Fri, 10 Sep 2004 12:01:25 GMT

:D!

GLAY cheered me up

Thu, 09 Sep 2004 02:49:07 GMT

Leave a comment with your name if you want to know what I really think of you, and I’ll reply and tell you. No lies, all honesty.

Post it in your journal after I do yours so I can see the reverse.

All right then...just put your name and that's all. If you're curious or whatever.

been so long I've been hopelessly confused

Thu, 09 Sep 2004 01:31:07 GMT

This will make no sense to anyone. Don't read it, it's just me complaining and making no sense 'cause I don't feel like explaining it.

Man, I'm so miserable. I don't know why I try to pretend there's nothing wrong, that everything is just dandy. I'm so horribly unhappy. I try really hard...every single day to keep a smile on my face, I try very hard to not let things drag me down, but I can't fight everything. Nobody even listens. But why should they? I never help anyone else, so I guess this is just punishment for my mistakes. I've made so many, I'll be miserable the rest of my life. Besides, even if I told people, I can't expect them to solve my problems for me. I tell my parents that I'm unhappy, but they don't say anything. They don't give me one piece of advice. All my father says is, "What about graduating early?" or "Talk to your councelor to see if you can graduate early." My all time favorite is, "It's almost over." Wtf, that doesn't make me feel better at all. I can't be mad at him though, it's not easy to make people feel better. Maybe it's because I feel so alienated. My friends are so different, they don't even realize it. They don't even realize how hard it is for me to be around them, how hard it is for me to hold my opinions about their stupid decisions. What does it matter anyway? What happened, happened... I can't do anything about it now, I only wish I had been around before they made those decisions. I would have tried so hard to talk them out of it... I never thought they'd do any of the things they're doing now. Apparently I don't know my friends at all anymore, maybe I never did. I suppose I shouldn't be surprised. I don't even know what I'm so angry about, their stupid decisions or their great changes. Maybe I'm not even angry at all, I'm just... find it less appealing to talk to both of them. I want to crawl into a hole... I can't even talk to them, I just have to pretend nothing is bothering me. I tried bringing it up, but it doesn't phase them at all. When I talked to them about how I found out something that I thought they'd tell me about FROM SOMEONE ELSE, they just laughed and joked like it was no big deal. Like it didn't hurt my feelings at all that I found out from someone else. This was so long ago... but it just won't go away! I thought if I ignored it and kept pretending I was okay, this problem would dissapear. But I can't even fool myself into thinking I'm fine... "The longer that I wait, the more selfish I get." I'm trying so hard to like them again, to salvage the normal mood we had before they changed. I'm doing a fine job so far, they have no idea something's wrong with me. So... I guess I'll let this bug drive me mad until I figure out what to do. Writing about this helps me so much... though it makes me sad at the same time. It's not the sex, it's the changes. They're different people now, weather they see it or not. I don't even know HALF of what's going on with them anymore... if I did, I'd go mad. I'm already insane enough... I need to find my stillness in time...

"This could never really end,
It's infineatly sad.
Could someone tell me when,
something good became so bad?
If you have a cure,
to me would you please send
a picture of my life
with a letter telling how
it should really be instead."
-Jamiroquai (Picture Of My Life)

boom boom

Tue, 07 Sep 2004 11:56:49 GMT

Hey wifey, dig my new icon X3 I couldn't help myself <3

Too early to post anything else...*shrugs* Off to school, kiddies.

//EDIT// All right then, I'm here at school...woot. Doing nothing during my open hour. I kind of want to go to the cafeteria to eat my lunch, but it's too early. Besides, it's warm here (surprisingly enough, today is a little chilly). For the first time this year, I have a little home-packed lunch to eat here in school ^_^ Doesn't that just warm the heart? It's a croissant my dad made, I just put it in a little bag and brough it to school. Can't wait to eat it.

Oh wifey, you'll appreciate this, that Korean kid I'm getting to know is talking to me more on his own. I thought I annoyed him at first, but he doesn't seem to mind me anymore seeing as how he came over here and all. He scrolled through my journal too n_n; He liked the Yuna icons. Uh, what else?... There is a scary big tall guy looking around the lab for a computer, he scares me, so I'm gonna go so he can use this computer. See ya around kids <3

Labor Day Mecha Anime Marathon!

Mon, 06 Sep 2004 17:12:59 GMT

I'm having a Labor Day Mecha Anime Marathon! Which consists of...Gundam Wing. Just Gundam Wing, I'm not going to bother with Neon Genesis Evangelion or anything, I'd need more than a day for that. So yay, the tradition lives on! I always watch all the episodes of Gundam Wing on Labor Day (or Memorial Day, one of the two) each year, so I don't go a whole year without my dose of Gundam-ness. So, just come over and watch all the episodes of Gundam Wing at my house, commercial free! (They're only commercial free because I have a fast forward button on my VCR remote, haha.) Actually, don't come because I'll probably be in my pajamas all day XD Jk jk. It's kind of sad though, one of my favorite anime series and I only have it taped off Cartoon Network, IN ENGLISH no less! Dubbed *sobs.* However! Gundam Wing was a very nice dub, so I don't have a huge problem watching the dub (not like I have a choice 'cause I've never bought the DVDs). I want some GW dvds now...T_T; Boo hoo.

I have so much homework to doooo x_X *dies in a pile of Gundam-Wing obsessed goodness*

Suddenly I wish for simpler times.
Watching this show makes me soooo nostalgic. It's weird... I was very obsessed with Gundam Wing when I was in 6th grade or so. Back when things made sense. Back when my friend Renie loved Treize and Caitlin loved the Cardcaptor Sakura song Groovy! Back when Katya still lived in Iowa and we had long bouts of watching anime and eating popcorn, looking at Sailormoon manga galleries on the internet. Back when Janet and I had birthday parties together. Back when I was just a kid, not worried about anything, building Gundam Wing models and giggling at Gundam Wing Character Songs in Japanese. Back when my summers were not spent in Miami, but in Iowa City, going downtown in excitement because there were two anime stores there where I would buy posters and posters of anime heroes. Now one of the stores is closed, I don't buy anime posters anymore, and my friends could care less about how humorous it may be to hear Quatre singing in Japanese. I don't even buy Gundam Wing models anymore. All of these memories triggered by Gundam Wing... How dumb.

it's too late to say you're sorry

Sun, 05 Sep 2004 17:44:10 GMT

Woot, wasting time making graphics! :D Dig my new Yuna layout. I'm a little Yuna-crazed right now (for some reason), so I made a few icons I thought I'd share. It's been a while since I've posted icons, so yeah...here goes!

(6 Yuna, 1 Ren/Lenne, and 1 random lost Teru icon)
Teasers:

[x] comment if you take any (though I don't think anyone will)
[x] no credit required, though it'd be nice

Hm.... I want to make more icons... But I don't know what to make icons of anymore. I swear I've made icons of every single picture on my comp...except for the crappy ones. I think I'll make some Kill Bill icons, but I've already made a bunch of Gogo and I don't really have pictures of The Bride or Budd or anyone, so that may take some time for me to find images I like and all. I went to Best Buy and bought Kill Bill Volume 2 yesterday, which was cool. I may have said this already, but I like Kill Bill vol. 1 better than vol. 2. I just thought I'd get the second to complete the Kill BIll stuff. I really like Budd, he is really awesome. Elle Driver is neat too, pretty evil... I think those two are what I like best about Vol. 2. Well, I think I'll get going again. Gotta do something, maybe I'll do homework (maybe not). Ciao dodalu.

music FIGHTER

Sat, 04 Sep 2004 15:49:31 GMT

Sorry everyone who was talking to me on aim yesterday (half of my freaking friends list XD) but I too excited to stay seated and my brother and Crystal kept on giving me cake. (They're choosing a wedding cake, so I had to try like 50 different types of cake, from 5 different kinds of chocolate cake to turtle (?) cake and vanilla with creepy frosting roses.) Not to mention I kept on forgetting I was signed on X3

ANYWAY. I get to go to the Franz Ferdinand concert in Chicago! :D I'm so excited! It's September 30th, the day before my birthday! I'm not sure if we're leaving Wednesday and coming back Thursday night or...what. But the tickets are bought and I'm going! I wish I could miss school Thrusday AND Friday (my birthday), come back Saturday...or even, come back SUNDAY ;D But I'm not sure how that'll work.

Uh, that's all for now. DODALU.

//EDIT// I really want to buy Kare Kano (his and her circumstances) dvd. Have I mentioned I'm into this whole weird...liking of shoujo anime phase? I really like Fruist Basket and now I want to get into Kare Kano. It's my uncle's fault! He buys anime soundtracks whenever he can, and he bought the Kare Kano OST and... I love it x_x; The opening and ending songs are so cute, damn. I miss my Kare Kano icon...>_> But erm, yeah, if I find the first dvd at Best Buy, I will buy it :D Because I'm going to buy Kill Bill volume 2 (finally), but if I see Kare Kano 01, I'll have to get it. Eh, okay, I think I'm done this time. *Nod nod*

ich heisse super fantastische

Thu, 02 Sep 2004 22:53:21 GMT

Heh, I asked two people that speak German what "ich heisse super fantastische, Ich Trinke champers mit Lachsfisch" means. (If you don't know, Darts Of Pleasure, a song by Franz Ferdinand says that in the end.) At first, Caitlin said it meant, "I'm super fantastic, I drink (something) with laughing fish." Later, I asked Tyler who is also studying German, and he said that when you say it like that, "ich heissa super fantastische" means you're super fantastic in bed. Which makes TONS of sense, since the song is about blindingly hot pleasure (maybe I'm exaggerating a little). He also said champers is champagne but he didn't know what lachsfisch meant. He was unsure that it was laughing fish, because it just sounded so strange. But yeah, I found that interesting. (I love singing that line, "ich heisse super fantastische.")

Lesse, what else? School sucks, obviously. I'm digging my open hour though, just an hour and a half of doing nothing (maybe my algebra homework sometimes) and listening to really loud music of my choice. (Jamiroquai or Franz Ferdinand are fine choices for open hour music.) May I make a little complaint? Yeah, thanks. Lately, I've been doing a lot of...hanging around by myself at school. Spending open hours and lunch by myself and all and I realized that all the kids in my school bug me so much. More so the "hot topic goths." I'm not dissing on Hot Topic or anything, but there's people who think wearing black and buying Hot Topic clothes makes them gothic. Yeah, right. I REALLY don't like those "boo hoo, I'm outcast from society, nobody likes me, ect." The only reason it bugs me is because... THEY AREN'T FUCKING OUTCASTS. WTF. All they do is hang around with their friends and act weird on purpose so that people will have that impression that they're goth. In West High, there are what?...maybe TEN outcasts, okay? If even that. To me, an outcast is somebody that doesn't fit into any group and doesn't have a lot of friends, people aren't into what they're into, they're just weird. Of course they have friends, but not a big group of them. Geez. I'm ranty about that right now, but wannabe goth kids have always bugged me. I also hate it when people touch my face. That's right. The thing I hate most though, would have to be school.

In any case, my brother is getting married this May in Cancun, Mexico. Anybody want to go, they want me to invite friends. Lol, of course, you'd have to pay your own ticket, so good luck. But what will be great about this? I can drink myself silly! Yay. I'm not just kidding, I can drink in Mexico because there's no 21-alcohol rule. That's probably my favorite part. They're having a second reception though, here in Iowa because not everyone can go to Cancun (money is tight, I guess) so their Iowa wedding party is October 1st, 2005. Ring a bell to anyone? October 1st is my birthday. I'm going to turn 18 the same day of their wedding thing, so I go to their party and everything. It's no matter though, I doubt I'd have a birthday party to begin with. (I'm not having one this year.) But yeah, just noting that... *shrugs* It's too far into the future for me to have opinions about it.

I'm gone.

hold you head up, you silly girl

Tue, 31 Aug 2004 23:42:52 GMT

I'd like to be under the sea,
In an octopus' garden in the shade.
He'd let us in, knows where we've been
In his octopus' garden in the shade.
I'd ask my friends to come and see
An octopus' garden with me.
I'd like to be under the sea
In an octopus' garden in the shade.

We would be warm below the storm
In our little hideaway beneath the waves
Resting our head on the sea bed
In an octopus' garden near a cave
We would sing and dance around
because we know we can't be found
I'd like to be under the sea
In an octopus' garden in the shade

We would shout and swim about
The coral that lies beneath the waves
(Lies beneath the ocean waves)
Oh what joy for every girl and boy
Knowing they're happy and they're safe
(Happy and they're safe)
We would be so happy you and me
No one there to tell us what to do
I'd like to be under the sea
In an octopus' garden with you.

(The Beatles -- Octopus' Garden)

You make believe that nothing is wrong until you're crying on me

Tue, 31 Aug 2004 22:27:26 GMT

"If my day keeps going this way I just might break your fucking face tonight."

You know, I think my biggest pop culture guilty pleasure of all time is Limp Bizkit. Seriously... I don't understand WHY IN THE HELL I waste my not-so-valuable time listening to these goons. Someone please explain it to me. They suck, it's horrible. I know they suck, I'm not trying to defend them in any way. I just wish I could stop listening to their songs...ugh, they suck. But I like a few of them (shame shame on me!). This almost takes my musical taste back to square one. I swear... Some of their songs are funny though, as in...funny to laugh AT them, not WITH them. Riiight. (To be honest, I don't actually own ANY of their albums, I have a cassette tape and I don't know most of the names of their songs. That makes it a little better, right?) Now that I listen to them again, I'm kind of realizing how er...angry their songs are and what they're about. (I never thought too much about it before.) But yeah, enough. Conclusion: Limp Bizkit sucks and they scare my grandmother. Not to mention my father hates them.

Please, I'm crazy right now, ignore me completely. Thanks <3 I hope there are worse guilty pleasures to have... At least I don't like Britney Spears or anything like that. That comparison makes me feel better. Phew.

Anyway... I'm not doing too hot today (no, really?). But instead of dwelling on the bad things (aka people involved read my journal), I'm gonna talk about the good things.

Right. Bye bye now. I don't have anything to do but complain. So I'm gonna do homework (yeah right).

I got that chiba-chiba kinda space cowboy style

Mon, 30 Aug 2004 03:52:39 GMT

Eeee...gmail is so cool. I have a new address :D cherry.king@gmail.com. Yay! All thanks to the wonderful Jasmine <3 Thanks muchly! This is specially good because smoochies.org went down and I lost my jiro@smoochies account *pout* So anyone that would like to e-mail me, please please please leave your e-address in a comment. I lost all my addresses because my old e-mail is burning in hell. Eheh >_>;

I figured out the trick to whistling! You have to be happy/in a good mood! :D Well, that's true for me. I can never whistle unless I'm happy :D I've been happy today, groovin' to Jamiroquai. I bought one of their CDs today, I didn't have their very first one Emergency On Planet Earth. Man, I love that band...<3 Okay, that's all, I gotta jet. CIAO DODALU.

can you tell I'm bored?

Sun, 29 Aug 2004 18:25:24 GMT

Dig my updated info page. Biiig changes. Yeah, I'm pretty bored... I should be doing homework, but I'm not (big surprise). I might go see I-Robot today. Maybe.

Taito is love

Woot, my first colorbar. Go me. I might make a Daiken one too, I'm not very creative with colorbars at the time. I should make a Spider-man is love one XD Jk jk.... that one probablly exists already. *Shrugs* I think I will make a Daiken one... *goes off to look through the Digimon image folder* Bai dodalu!

PS: Should I make my journal friends-only? I've been thinking about it... One of the reasons I want to do that is because I want a cool Friends-only banner XD I'm such a dork. Okay, bye.

If you drag your feet, I'll leave you behind

Sun, 29 Aug 2004 04:23:40 GMT

Dig my new Trunks icon. Also dig my new very pink-and-black layout. I got a little nostalgic this morning and started listening to Dragonball music (odd indeed). It's funny, I was a huge Dragonball fan when I was in primary school and probably Jr. High... but then I suddenly lost interest in it (I don't really know why). Probably because the dub was so bad... I even have this really cool Goku shirt that was huge on me when I was in primary school, it's still pretty big on me now XD I don't know how I pulled off wearing it in 6th grade. But yeah, today I remembered how much I love Dragonball/Z/GT. Perhaps I don't love it, but...eh, I know a lot about it, believe it or not. I don't meant to be "show-off"-ish or anything, but I bet I can match any Dragonball fanatic at knowledge of the anime. Maybe not the manga 'cause I never read that, but surely the anime. ANYWAY. If there's anything I DON'T want to hear, it is Vegeta singing a... slow-depressed warrior type song (download it from this site, there's a few others here, like Trunks' song!). But I do like the Goten and Trunks song XD It's funny. And Hikari no Will (Trunks' Theme) is pretty cool.... well, it's really not, but I like listening to it. I'm crazy, I need to be sent to a mental hospital. (Anyone who likes to hear Trunks' songs needs to be hospitalized, I swear.) *Sigh* Dragonball sure brings me back to... a long time ago. I was a happy kid, ya know! I really was :D It makes me happy to remember that.

Anyhoo... today I was shopping lots. I discovered that my parents (my mother specially) like to sneak things into the shopping cart (clothes I really wouldn't wear) and buy them without my knowledge. I find out when I'm home, clipping the tags off. All of a sudden, a shirt with a Warner Brothers character doesn't seem very familiar. When I ask my mother about it, she says really innocently, "You don't like it?" So I have to say I do and wear it on weekends, when I feel like being lazy. I bought some cool green converses, I quite like them...*nod nod* Eh, what else? Oh, there's a bunch of NEW machines at the arcade, I had so much fun playing there on Friday! :D My parents went out to dinner with their friends, so I went to eat at Sarku/Sakkai Japan. The teriyaki chiken is really good... just remind me to order fried rice next time. But yeah, they have the cutest game called Mr. Driller there, it's a puzzle type game. It's in Japanese too and the machines are little so you can sit down and play. Too much fun for a Japan geek like me. I also played Pac-Man in a new machine, it's awesome. Although, my Pac-Man skills have gotten much quite bad.

(Subject change) I love having open hour, woot. Friday, all I did was sit by the back doors (to get cool air) and listen to The Beastie Boys on my CD player :D It was great. I discovered, I very much like to have that open hour. It's right before lunch too, so I have an hour and a half to do nothing. My dad might take me out to lunch sometimes, maybe. There's no good places around school though. But...yeah, I'm done. DODALU.

I've been interviewed by __jinna!

Wed, 25 Aug 2004 15:28:28 GMT

RULES:
1 -- Leave a comment, saying you want to be interviewed.
2 -- I will respond; I'll ask you five questions.
3 -- You'll update your journal with my five questions, and your five answers.
4 -- You'll include this explanation.
5 -- You'll ask other people five questions when they want to be interviewed.

1) do you own glasses? Yes, I own one pair of geeky black-rim glasses that I wear whenever I'm awake (I have horrid eye sight) and I think I have a few sunglasses that I never wear because they don't have my perscription.

2) what's your favorite color? My favorite color is gray because it's a very uniform color, serious and formal. However, I like red a lot, black too and blue. All four of those are my favorites, but I like red and black together the best.

3) have you ever fallen asleep in class? Hah, are you kidding? Of course, last year biology was a snooze fest. I've even fallen asleep during a test (an easy one though, so it was no problem), which is not something I recommend unless you know what you're doing :D However, this year (since I'm a third year high school student now) I hope not to do that anymore.

4) how often do yo go outside? Out...side? What is that? You mean that place that isn't my house? Nah, never go there. My house is teh place.

5) boxers or briefs? XD Hah! Secret? X3 Actually, I don't wear boxers... as cool as I'm sure they are.

Well then, that's all. I'm in school right now, kiddies, you lucky ones that aren't in school yet. I have an open hour so I decided that instead of doing my psychology homework, I'd waste some time :D Just grand. Okay, I better jet. Although I have nothing to do or anywhere to go, I don't have anything to write about either. CIAO.

join my fruits basket

Tue, 24 Aug 2004 01:17:03 GMT

I have this new thing on my info page (domestic fuxxer family) that lists my livejournal family. I saw it on someone else's info page (I'm so sorry whoever you are, I forgot! >__<) and I stole it 'cause that's how cool it is. There's only one on there right now, my wifey. So yeah, anyone can be my anything, 'cause everything's open (sister, brother, lovah, kitten, husband-- as little sense as that may make). So just comment and ask me "can I be your ____?" I think it'd be kind of fun if a lot of people started doing it... but, it's not that cool, huh? :D

SPiN me down

Mon, 23 Aug 2004 23:03:13 GMT

*Takes a deep breath* Man, there are so many things to write about.... and so little time to do so. As great and dandy as my trip was, I must write about something that's just screaming at me right now. It seems like my flight took a wrong turn and now I'm in bizzaro land, some other dimention. Everyone has changed immencely. It's not even funny how different everyone is....EVERYONE. Well, everyone from school, that is. (Today was the first day of school for me, btw.) It just feels so weird, like I don't even know anyone anymore and these brand new people are pretending they've known me for ages. I'm not even sure how to feel about it... It seems like everyone is changing for the better (well, I don't know) but they seem happy, so I'm going to assume it's for the better. It's not so much that I want everything to be how it was "back then," I just feel like I'm in a completely different thing than everyone else. I'm still the same jerk I've always been, I haven't changed. Even if I have, it's been in all the wrong ways apparently. I used to be a nice person really, I used to be. But I wasn't all that happy back then, or was I? I don't even know. But I'm not happy now, with myself or anyone. I'm happy for everyone, I guess. Everyone has changed but they seem like any other person now, falling into these horrible stereotypes, they used to be different from the crowds. I'm not trying to put people from school down, everyone is changing for the better. I can't help to be bitter about it though, I just feel like I'm not up to par for anyone now. I can't relate to my friends, I even feel awkward when I'm around people I know. Actually, I guess Jenni hasn't changed (she's in two of my classes), I don't feel weird around her. Not everyone I know from school falls into this "huge change," but a vast majority do. I don't know what to do, it might just be one of those things I'll have to just get over because when people change, they never go back. It's impossible to go back.

I'm not sure I'll be able to get over it. I'm changing too, I suppose, I'm just going to become a bigger jerk. If I don't get over it, what do I do??? I can only pretend everything is okay for so long! Urg, I hate teen angst. I wish I could stop being a teenager so I could have regular angst. I'm just freaking out here, I really do feel horrible about the situation and it's going to drive me mad. So much that I'm just going to pack up and move out of the country, I really am having problems with this.

ANYWAY. [/angst]. I'll talk about what made my day so I can end on a happy note. First hour I have Creative Writing class with Mr. Lindsey (yay), and his classroom is right next to Miss Aikin's classroom. (Miss Aikin was my favorite teacher ever, btw! :D) So Mr. Lindsey and Miss Aikin were standing next to each other chatting, when I saw Miss Akin, I dashed over there and I swear I almost gave her a big hug! :D I almost wish I had. But anyway, she asked me about my summer and we were chatting about our vacations before the bell rang, then Miss Aikin was worried I'd be late to class so I told her my classroom was right there next to hers. She got excited and said, "You have Mr. Lindsey?! For creative writing?!" She even gasped, she was excited :D Then she turned to Mr. Lindsey and said, "You are so lucky! You are going to have so much fun with Marc, I promise. I have never been so impressed with a student before!" *DIES* Is that not the best compliment I could get?! I love Miss. Aikin, and she's always talking about how she loves my work....*dreamy sigh* I'm so happy. If I ever publish a book, my first one will be dedicated to her, for being my first fan and the most lovely teacher I've ever had. It really made me feel good though, because I know she's not just saying that because she's my teacher, she's not my teacher anymore! She doesn't have to say that now. She's been teaching for years, so it's not like I'm one of her first classes either. I just felt so good when she said that, I was feeling so crappy, it brought me right up. However, Mr. Lindsey might have some higher expectations of me now, you know? Kind of like, he'll be expecting I'm some new age Shakespeare and then he'll read my stuff and find out it's not good. I forgot to check if Miss Aikin has 3rd hour open (which is when I have open), I want to chat with her some more. I really like her, not like a crush (as much as it may seem otherwise), I just love her as a person.

Apparently teachers are the most glad to see me (it all comes with being geeky), Mrs. Olsen stopped to talk to me in the library but I had to run and get to class. I'll talk to her more tomorrow when I have homeroom class. (Mrs. Olsen's my homeroom teacher, she once wrote a letter to my parents once telling them how it was a pleasure to have me in her homeroom...) I'll also have to swing by Mrs. Gibson's room (she's my 1st year English teacher). I guess the only school-related people I want to see are teachers =/ I'm just uberly geeky. Teachers just don't annoy me like students do, because they're mature.

There is more rambling to be done, but... I have to get going. One last thing: I found out some pretty big news about my friends from someone else. I don't like that someone other than them told me, but I guess I understand that it's none of my business to begin with, that's probably why they didn't inform me. It just made me a little bit angry, although I have no reason to be angry, they had no obligation to share that stuff with anyone, specially me.

That's enough. CIAO. At least the thing I most depend on to be happy will always be there...MUSIC <3

PHEW

Sun, 22 Aug 2004 15:43:08 GMT

Back from New York. GAH. My flight got delayed last night (I was supposed to be back in Iowa Saturday, not Sunday) so we missed our connecting flight >_< I HAD TO SLEEP IN THE AIRPORT. Yuck. I'm glad, glad, glad to be home. SO GLAD. (And busy...damn.)

I'll gladly write about my trip...later. I had to sleep in the O'Hare airport last night. SO yeah....will type later when I'm being less like a zombie. (Haven't had breakfast or anything =/ Blah.)

I'll get around to making comments/reading your guys' LJs sometime, I promise. If not, just sum up anything important in a comment, huh? :D

I'm sorry that I made you cry

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 05:52:24 GMT

Ugh. I was so happy to be back in my home today. But now... I really, really want to leave and never come back.

But...who would take care of my cat?

ask me why I say I love you

Sat, 14 Aug 2004 05:39:59 GMT

Um, sometimes I just can't get used to girls' crazy mood swings. Sorry, you know I love you anyway, all you crazy girls :D

So, tomorrow I'm flying back to Iowa only to leave the next day for New York City. Exciting stuff, my dad is very happy about going back there (he likes NYC a lot, but...hell, so does everyone who's been there). I hope to have fun, since my parents are so happy about this family trip, I'm going to try my best to be optimistic the whole time and not turn down ideas or things or act bored or...do any of those bratty-kid things I do sometimes. I'll even wake up early...EVEN though I have not gotten to sleep in late since I came to Miami =/ I love staying up all night and sleeping in, but my uncle doesn't like me waking up late and we had things to do...*sigh*

I had a very happy moment the other day. (this goes to show you I have nothing to write about) There was a girl walking down the street with headphones on and this cool little hat, holding up some grocerie(?) bags. You know, only a few people can pull of wearing a hat and look cool (I'm one of those that looks stupid wearing hats). Anyway, she walking down the street alone as I was walking the dog (Tommy) and she looked so happy. She was just smiling and kind of moving her head from side to side as she listened to her music, it was so cute. She wasn't a "cute" girl, but if you know me, you should know I don't like typical people that most others would agree are cute, I have...*shrugs* weird taste, or something. But anyway, she was so cute and happy that we just waved at each other as we walked by and it really made me happy for some reason. Like she just passed off her happiness to me, it was really uplifting. Yes, I'm weird, you should know that by now.

Hm..memegen time! (I am just hooked on these lately, huh?)

(hm...druidella my best again? XD It's gotta be true, eh?)

(aww, pig's blood? ;-;)

(that's gross XD)

(holy shit, 15 kids?! XD no way.)

(druidella and I with sex again?!~ XD Geez)

(well then...okay)

(woot!)

(wooot!! X3 I'm bass guitar! ....my computer ate your dog?? I'm not the songwriter, I hope)

That's enough of these o_o;

BYE!

don't cry

Thu, 12 Aug 2004 05:37:23 GMT

Phew. Have you guys heard anything about hurricane Charlie? Unfortuneatly, he's heading near Florida, on FRIDAY. Orlando (my uncle's...hubby? XD) went to Orlando (the city) today, he's returning Friday at 7:00 pm. I really hope his flight doesn't get cancelled or delayed, because my flight back to Iowa is Saturday =/ I also hope MY flight doesn't get cancelled or delayed, 'cause... if I don't get to Iowa by Sunday, I'll miss my flight to New York (wouldn't that be horrible?). What would I do then? Just fly back to Iowa to an empty house?...my cat, perhaps. Well, let's just hope that Charlie guy stays away from Florida when we have to travel. It could really mess up things for a lot of people traveling. I also hope that the hurricane doesn't hit us while we're here, 'cause I don't really care for death by hurricane. Specially since I'm here in Florida, I want to die after I get back to Iowa, even if it doesn't make a big difference, it'd be nicer to die there.

So, smoochies.org is apparently down for life, I'm going to have to find myself another host *sobs*. I really want my own domain but... my dad isn't too thrilled about the idea, because he says it's monthly payments he doesn't like and that it's too complicated. So, maybe I'll have to a domain myself, which should be...hard =/ I don't even know where to start. I'll look into it when I get back to Iowa. I'm in no hurry to get my own domain because the only things that were really important were my images (which don't matter to anyone but me) and the fanlistings (which DO matter) though I've handed them over to someone else who will take better care of them.

Oh yeah, you know what? I watched G-Phoria on G4-Tech TV... I was dissapointed. I mean, award shows are pretty dumb as it is (I don't care for them at all) but what REALLY REALLY disturbed me was Anna Nicole Smith. YUCK. I really ~~hate~~ dislike this woman. Just because she's not fat anymore doesn't mean she's sexy, I hate how she flaunts her breasts around as if everyone in the room wanted to see them. AND HOW THE HELL DARE SHE DRESS UP LIKE RIKKU!?!?! *dies* She did Rikku NO JUSTICE. NONE, I tell you! @_< *screams* I'm sorry, but it was a horrible moment for all Final Fantasy X-2 fans, seeing Anna Nicole Smith trying to immitate Rikku's voice... It's very silly to get upset over this, but I couldn't help it, I just hated it.

...I think I'm done ranting. (Phew, right?) On to some...quizzes and meme-gens!

(well, there you go)

(tried a different random word)

(haha, hey wifey! democratic convention! XD)

Your eye color is dark blue. You rely on your logic
solely, and may have more mature interests than
many of your friends and family your age. You
can sometimes also be interverted and lonely
from a lack of understanding with people, and
can be rather frustrated with some types of
folke. Some may describe you as cold and
distant, and you are honest with how you feel
about things.

What Color Eyes Should You Have? ( With Anime Pictures ^-^ )
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You're Yuki - the mouse.

Which Fruits Basket Character Are You?
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(erm, no. I'm nothing like Yuki)

Uotani

Which Fruits Basket (Furuba) Character are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
(um...not quite.)

Yuki (Year of the Rat)

Which Fruits Basket character are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
(eh. Yuki again.)

Shigure:
You're laid-back, and a firm believer in "If
it ain't broke, don't fix it" While it
may never show on the surface, you really are
quite the genius.

Which man of Fruits Basket are you?
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(that's better)

You're Hatori!

Which Fruits Basket Character Are You?
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(hm... that's enough of these.)

Gotta sleep...boo. Ciao.

Lick me all over, Shiina Ringo style

Sat, 07 Aug 2004 06:04:39 GMT

*sighs* Smoochies.org is having some kind of problems, which is driving me completely crazy because:
1) I can't check my e-mail
2) My images aren't working
3) I have no idea what's going on (s'not my domain)
4) I could lose all my e-mails, which would be horrible
5) I'd like to send/receive e-mail RIGHT NOW.

Anyway, today I did a lot of shopping. OH, since we're on lists, let me make a Moon Child list, I FINALLY watched that crazy Gackt/HYDE movie. It's actually a million times better than I thought it'd be, I liked it. I thought it'd be crap, but I was wrong.

Good Elements In Moon Child
1) Vampire HYDE (this was the best thing in the movie)
2) Pretty boys (...hell, they're cool.)
3) Gun-slinger Gackt!
4) Sad moments (as hard as that is to believe)
5) Great ending

Bad Elements In Moon Child
1) Uninteresting soundtrack (hell, you have Gackt AND HYDE *grumbles*)
2) Unexplained...begining. (doesn't take a genious, but anyway)
3) "Hana" (don't want to spoil it, so I'll just say this; not the character, but how she came about)
4) Not enough Vampire HYDE kicking ass action! damn.
5) Gackt's horrible ponytail thing. JK JK, um... let's go with: Not enough boy love XD

Erm, anyway...what else?... *Shrugs* I better go. Pray for the domain to be back up or something...*sob sob*

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DOB
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